It's Not Over 'Til It's Over

I am one of the most stubborn people I know. So stubborn, in fact, that some of you who know me will laugh. And it's okay. Because it's true. When I put my mind to something, there has never been a force of nature that has been able to stop me from making it happen. If at first I don't succeed... I dig at it until it works.

So why. Why on earth am I letting this beat me? It's been nearly a year since I started this mess, and while I've kept the weight off that I lost, I haven't made any progress. I'm back to terrible portion control and not caring what's on my plate. And it's not like I haven't educated myself. I know how to get started. I just need the kick in the ass to do it.

My mother once told me that you can never really achieve something until you own it. And now, at twenty-four, I agree. Unless I find a reason that overcomes all of my insecurities and doubts and wanting to take the easy way out - this just isn't going to happen.

So on that note, today I'm looking for a reason. A reason to stay in the fight and not give in. A reason to keep being stubborn. This is my life.

...wonderful. Now I have Bon Jovi stuck in my head.